Ministry Opportunity!

Okay, so tonight I will be boarding a plane to go to Central Asia...You may be surprised at this, and wonder: what does this have to do with Lebanon? Well, the ministry of the gospel is the same in every country; and this part of Central Asia shares a Muslim culture with Lebanon. The more I put myself in a position to be used by God in streching ways, the more He humbles me to learn to depend on Him and to follow in His ways. The purpose of this trip will be to strengthen and enourage women, who have been abused. I am going with someone named C who has gone many times and has connections with two women: one who is connected to a church (and has been helping us plan for the ministries we would be facilitating); and another who runs a daycare and teaches English to the kids. With us, we take donatations of toys (in abundance!) to bless the daycare with. Please pray that customs doesn't get suspicious! Pray for our flights, smooth transitions, our physical bodies (C's muscles to relax, in the Name of Jesus!), to adjust to time change, get enough rest. Also, for the ministries: we have a day where we will minister to women on healing for 9 hours!!!! (I will need grace for that!) That God would take care of my job while I am away for 2 weeks, that the people covering me would not feel over- burdened, and our families and friends interceding for C and I. I ask for blessing on all who are praying and supporting! We have planned to also share the gospel through the use of art, which were given to us from artists C knows. So, pray that we can transmit the gospel fully. I am "teaching" on intimacy with Jesus, pray for wisdom and God's leading! I know there is going to be a big explosion of God moving! I am so excited! I want to be open and prepared for whatever comes our way! God revealed to me through Acts that the women will come to know Jesus through our worship! Pray for that as well, as I know you so faithfully are! May God preserve the life of converts and protect them from persecution (Psalm 16)! To God be the glory of all He is doing as He sits enthroned on high! Halelujiah!

Good News!

I want to always be a witness of God's love to co-workers and it's hard to juggle everything: work, social groups, time for self and restoration...yet God is the one "doing" it all! He brought a co-worker to ME! I was about to leave work at the end of the day, wanting to get out of there as fast as possible...and she came over to me and said "I need a hug". Wow! Of course! What a ministry! To show love! God's love! Then, God led me to pray with her! (She was feeling overwhelmed). I want more opportunities like that! What a blessing! Praise God! Pray that I get MORE times to encourage and love...and to open a door for the gospel...I need more boldness!

Learning lately...

So, as God woke me in the middle of the night last night (9/27), He let me know as I sat in silence for a bit until I finally told Him: "Speak to me Lord, your servant is listening!" And He said "GRACE". Then a verse, "My grace is sufficient for you and made perfect in weakness". Yes! I rejoice that I am weak!!! Praise God!

September Update!

I am currently finding hope in moving along in this process of raising funds! I recently met with Black Rock Church, the body in which I grew up in faith of Jesus as my Savior! As I work at Wheeler clinic, I find I am continually being filled by Jesus' presence and guidance. It's becoming more real to me how I live to be poured out (as a fragrant offering) and I depend on His grace to be filled again. And it's an overwhelming reality to receive such unmerited favor in that process. It is such a privilege to be used my Him and my prayer is that I would desire and run after Him MORE! Thank you for your prayers!

Prayer of Faith

Lord, help me to be directed by your love. Let you will be my will so I may be guided by your right hand. I trust when I fall, you hold me fast. Your love is strong and I know it will last. I cannot understand enough of your ways, but I know I have sinned for I am fragile and human. But I seek to be like you.
Help meto be bold like Paul, faithful like Abraham...so I can do your work without embarassment or fear. I need you near...and you are.
Help me not to lose faith in you no matter what happens, even if I should lose material possessions. Or status or a job. I pray to remember your goodness in my life.
Remember your people, your promise, for you are good, My King of Kings...

The Aroma

The aroma of honey melting over rainy leaves are characteristic of the unknown flower smell- then see. it's bulbs hang daintily to kiss the ground. The yellow cascade of flowers like a wall in front of me; and just above the luminescent, glorious sunset that formed its blue clouds through the streams of orange and pink sky as in colorful stripes. The end of another day as toads croak and birds chirp. A chorus of sounds all around...it is true peacefulness and I am purely me. Raw and exposed to the world, not perfect but in process. Jesus leading the way and I am following. We journey together because it's not about the destination.
God wants to lead me through narrow, unbeaten paths. We both know where we will end up, only He knows how and I must depend
as
He guides.
No looking back or to the sides- just forward.
With boldness
Not as a coward.
He has a plan: I am a member of a chosen race, a royal Priesthood, a holy nation, a person of God's own possession- 1 Peter 2:9-10...
He will not let me go- yet I will not arrive as I think.

The Things We Lost

I look at you differently now.
as you look back at me...I force a smile and already I feel better.
things I have lost are only past,
I am no longer restricted by it, I am still
-and still running.
Running, for I am free...
I see you- and I laugh
no one saw what we went through.
You got through-
to me.
now with me.
You guide me because You are for me.
I love You, for You are my Creator.
the sunset relieves me;
I can whisper my hurts to the ocean-
Suddenly the stars fit into place;
I felt I was risking what I didn't have
but peace floats over in an over-flow,
perfuming with incense.
I become an offering.
I don't know anything, but it is more clear
than ever now-
I may be blind, but I keep seeing color...
I may be going through a jungle of weeds-
HE will just have to hedge a clear path for me...
No,I am not lost
                 nor have I a thing that is lost.